we have been pretty busy lately, trying to get back to a normal life. i've been trying to cook again but it's hard because this guy wants to help with absolutely everything. despite her lack of culinary expertise she insists that she knows better than i when it comes to fixin's!

i am exhausted but i go to sleep happy and quickly, which is a sign that all is right in the world. ALAS. here is what we have been up to as of late:

lily went to the aquarium today. she was afraid of the gar fishes but loved the eels and the sting rays. her favorite animals are sharks and bats. i'm surprised she has so much of a personality already: i am terrified for the future.

i touched a trout and i think i got the ick or whatever that gross thing is that fish get. i have rashes all over my arms and i had to take a benadryl. don't touch trouts! they are unpleasantly firm anyway.

lately i've been dressing like the royal tenenbaums because i'm too fat for slut jeans and not fat enough for mom jeans. so the obvious medium is to dress like ben stiller.

lily liked the tamaya. we took her there for the first time and were going to show her where mama and daddy got married but that's a long, long walk. she got to see it from afar. it's a filthy shame you can't see the business end of my hair in these pictures. i now wear out, not up. it's about 6 inches off the back of my head.

my ma entered lily in the pimp my baby regis and kathy lee contest. she's pretty convinced she's going to win. if she does we're going to probaby have to spend the prize money to battle this trout disease. i never should have touched that thing.

we also went to santa fe this week. supposedly there is an excellent restaurant up there called torinos at home but it apparently closes on weekends! a la verga. i didn't get to take any pictures becasue lily was sleeping. ALAS.

lily cookies

SMALLCOOKIES- makes about 48 peanut butter cookies, depending on how much of the dough you eat.


1 cup of peanut butter of your choosing
3/4 cup of butter, softened
1 1/2 cup of sugar, white.
1 teaspoon of vanilla extract
1 egg
1 tablespoon of half and half
1/4 teaspoon of salt
1/2 teaspoon of baking powder
1 teaspoon of baking soda
1 bag of reeses peanut butter chips.


heat oven to 350. mix peanut butter and butter until it looks like runny peanut butter. add sugar, slowly. add vanilla and egg and half anf half, mix again. add salt, baking powder and bakng soda. add half the flour and mix. add the other half. stir in the chips. make into one inch balls, don't flatten them they'll do it on their own, and bake for ten minutes. sprinkle some sugar on top while they are still hot. b. f. g.

babyposing

au matin de sa vie

i hate blog. i hate the word for it's plosive 'bl' component but also because in highschool a lot of people i hated had blogs and used to say the word blog a lot. so blog, like "magick", looney-tunes sweatshirts and ferretts all leave me with a bad taste in my mouth.

but holy god, time flies. maybe it will feel like it doesn't if i better document my goings on. so here is my mighty service to the internets. more importantly this is for my lily, so when she is older she can look back and see my sick mothering, which would have otherwise been lost in the abyss of infantile oblivion.

so enjoy my slightly censored, written whilst the baby naps BLOG. BLOG BLOG BLOG BLOG BLOG!

kisses!